cuute! (:

2012-01-17T21:30:00.001+08:00

I wished not to be disturbed. Farewell, for a while.

To a distant place

2011-12-03T05:36:00.001+08:00

Off to far far away.

2011-09-12T23:39:00.000+08:00

Yay,

l'amour toujour, Alston (:

2008-11-12T22:59:00.002+08:00

it's painful, very painful.
your words, though seemed playful,
it's still as sharp as a knife.
you don't mean it I know,
but, it just seemed to break up the barrier of my sensitive heart.
I am weak inside, I know
I cannot seem to treat those words as just something...
that you didn't mean.

I gave hints to show my hurt,
yet you couldn't pick any up.
continue to say things,
which will rip me apart.
Will you understand me?
no you won't.
because I am just a complicated, stupid boy with a small brain

2008-04-22T22:51:00.001+08:00

what is fate?
is it a human? is it a mystical force?
why does it loves to play with people's feeling?
does it feel satisfied from doing that?
and see the people whom it affects suffer?
Fate has always been appearing in my mind,
I've always thought that it was a perfect bond,
a bond that 2 lovers share,
a string that ties people together.
but that is just the tip of the iceberg.
fate is not as perfect as what I thought it to be!
for every love it creates, It destroy one
for every happy mind it creates, it saddens another
and every heart it fulfills, it makes fun of another.
I am asking you now, who or what are you fate.
why must you torture me so much?
giving me hope one day, yet shattering it again in the most fashionable way
fate oh fate, I plead and I pray,
please stop toying with my feeling.
please show me the way
and please, stop torturing me

2008-03-03T18:43:00.001+08:00

I look to her, lying sweetly in my shoulders.the warm golden rays of the setting sun shine onto her freckled faceshe look back into my eyes, as though she wanted to say somethingbut I know it all too well. She has always loved me, always!high up in the clouds was where we were.enjoying the beautiful senery that brought us closer togetherI smiled,the burst of golden rays, the anguish of the red setting sunwill be gonebut I told her, my love remains for her and never will it change
the moon has risenthe stars shined as though they were touched by our lovewe flew through the endless space, guided by the magical light of the north starI held her hands tightly in mine, wanting her always by my sidefor time makes us one, and never shall we partall my life, all my joy were all yours,for you and me, made it allfor you and me... shall be

2008-02-28T22:15:00.002+08:00

some poems nothing much

I had a dream,
a sweet one,
something that I can' forget,
something that never fails to make me smile.
it might just be a fantasy,
where you fall in love with me.
It might be shortbut seeing
you in my embrace,just melts me heart.
You with your eyes closely shut
lying on my shoulder,
snugging your head into my neck.
looking at your face,
you gave me a weak smile.
I smiled back,
and there you closed your eyes again.
Time flies
sweet things got to end someday
Flying away from you,
looking at you one last time
with your tears dropping down one by one like crystals shattering on the cold hard floor.
I know it is wrong of me to do that
but I got to go, I.......sorry

I look into your eyes,
that sad soulful eyes of yours,
gazing strongly into meit is as though,
your soul has passed into me we are together as one.
you smiled,
your eyes closedyou snugged yourself straight in my arms
I whispered softly into your ears"my beautiful girl,
how I long for you everyday and night
how I wish we would be together,
and nothing would separate us"
you remained silent, just like me
I take it as you understood me
for I had understand you
You were always mine to begin with
and I was always yours to end with
our love, would it last forever?
I would rightly say "Yes"

lonely

I have always ask this question myself,
why do I always feel empty?
why is my heart filled with the overwhelming void?
Deep inside meI really yearn for someone to talk to,someone to laugh with, and someone to cry with
but everyone I know shuns me, scorns me
What have I done to deserve this?
I am very tired,
I had put up with this for a very long time.
People who proclaim to be your friends,how do they treat me?
They take advantage of my kindness.
When they don't need me, they treat me like shit.
Yet when my help is needed, they act as though we are very close,
I have kept quiet, I have been silent.
Did anyone treasure me before?
no...
I have always been with myself,
I am always alone
my best friend is just my pillow whom I sleep with everyday.
Sometimes I really wonder,
why am I putting up with this?
why can't I just end this up?
But the truth is,
I am really powerless.
I am really helpless.
My lonliness have engulfed me, swallowed me.
I am just too deep for me to resurface
just let me drown in my sorrow,
never to return again
After all, no one would care about my existence,
even if I disappear one day
Afterall, I am just a lonely boy,
living in this deserted world.
Afterall, I do not deserve anyone's sympathy
For I am a lonely werido, whom no one likes...

2007-01-08T21:13:00.000+08:00

wow, long time since i updated, a whole 8 mths =)

2007 have past, acjc orientation is over, and the mass dance was great.

below is the video of the leaked 2007 acjc mass dance :

2006-07-01T13:46:00.000+08:00

nth to see

2006-04-30T18:51:00.000+08:00

some lame jokes

if a plane fly halfway no fuel, wat will drop 1st?

if jane is john's mother, then jane is the __________of john's mother?

为什么猫看到老鼠就跑？

什么动物最狡猾？

what is the diffence between a fly and a mosquito?

Wat do u call a blind deer(part 1)

wat do u call a blind deer which is not moving(part 2)

which animal is deaf and blind

2006-04-23T18:40:00.000+08:00

if i will, will you?
if i do, do you?
if i want, you want?
if you give, i give?
if you love, i love?
if you care, i care?

if if if iF if if if

all will never happen...
Never.
surely,
definiely,
will you?

2006-04-01T12:31:00.000+08:00

=) =) =) =)

Smiley face

2006-03-13T12:03:00.000+08:00

wooot. din even realise i move mi blog. sadly . diz blog is nt mantain by mi aniways oso. so i dun even noe if the blogskin change of wadeva.yah? i juz realised juz now tt i hav move. tts y i blog.

n i hav juz achieve a great achievement. i hav successfully deleted all mi computer games on mi com. hahaha. if nt mi com will keep restarting 4 no reasons. sumting wrong wif the stupid graphics card, or the BIOS tingy. diz is gd aniws. so i wun get addicted to maplesea.

i guessed it aniws. most ppl wun get to read diz post aniws. dey all tink mi blog kana deserted le. so whu cares wat i write. rubbish!!

2006-02-13T18:31:00.000+08:00

i've been dreaming about you everyday..
i really miss your beautiful smile,
your presence..and your existance.
i wished day in and day out,
that i will finally see you one day.
But when will that be?

my heart had long shattered,
but the millions pieces still harboured one hope,
the hope..of being with you.
you are my happiness,
but you brought me sorrow too.
I will never blame you,
cause i just cant bring myself to do that.

you know,
i have long made a promise,
a promise which will never be broken,
a promise i will keep till the day i enter my grave.
the promise of loving no one else but you.

i alaways tell myself,
no one shall ever take my memories of you away,
for i will clutch onto it as hard as i can.
you are just so precious to me,
really..

let me make another promise to you.
that is i will wait for your return,
even if it takes forever,
even if all my hairs have gone white.

til then, i can only dream of you,
and i can only treasure my memories of you.
but there is one thing that is definite,
that is....................you

2006-01-25T19:14:00.000+08:00

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2005-12-14T19:44:00.000+08:00

Pick me up
Been bleeding too long
Right here, right now
I'll stop it somehow

I will make it go away
Can't be here no more
Seems this is the only way
I will soon be gone
These feelings will be gone
These feelings will be gone

Now I see the times they change
Leaving us, it seems so strange
I am hoping I can find
Where to leave my hurt behind
All the shit I seem to take
All alone I seem to break
I have lived the best I can

Shut me off
I'm ready
Heart stops
I stand alone
Can't be my own

I will make it go away
Can't be here no more
Seems this is the only way
I will soon be gone
These feelings will be gone

Am I going to leave this place?
What is it I'm hanging from?
Is there nothing more to come?
Is it always black in space?
Am I going take its place?
Am I going to leave this race?
I guess God's up in this place?
What is it that I've become?
Is there something more to come?

2005-12-09T18:21:00.001+08:00

so sian

2005-11-28T11:51:00.000+08:00

Hello , greetings, it's me, an outlaw,
I ask you, my love, to accept happiness.
Hello, hello, it's me,
I sent you a beep , and I'm brave ,
But you should know that I'm not asking for anything from you.

You want to leave but you don't to take me,
Your face and the love from the linden trees,
And I remember your eyes.

I call you , to tell you what I feel right now,
Hello, my love, it's me, your happiness.
Hello, hello, it's me again,
I sent you a beep [cellphone signal] and I'm brave ,
But you should know that I'm not asking for anything from you.

2005-11-23T09:33:00.000+08:00

camp camp camp camp camp

i hate camp

y muz dere b camp

2005-11-14T18:34:00.000+08:00

wwwaaaa.wat a tired dae.can fall 2 slp on mi bed now.lmao.initially plan 2 go 2 PS wif xiaowan.syt.swee swee 2 watch movie.bt WTF. all e movie either 2pm or 4.25pm.how 2 watch!! den eat at pizza hut. ^%$@$&%*^&^*%$#$@*@#$%^%. eat until so full [i ate 4 pizza.2 bowl of chicken soup. garlic bread]. cannot even stand up straight. den supposed 2 buy clothes. n wth. nonne of e clothes attracted mi. haiz. wat a wasteful dae sia.shud juz hav stay at home n slp e whole dae....n do mi hmwk. n msg 2 much nowadaes le.muz save mi sms.if nt overshot i mati ar. bt oh wells. aniws. i oso saw 1 veri funny incident. lol. one couple(boyfren n galfren). e sight tt made mi laugh is tt e guy is actually so much shorter den his gf.OMG.n dey r holding hands.n i was tellin tt 2 swee swee. (yes. n i laugh quite loudly) n e guy actually lk at mi. nx time i shan't tok infront of ppl. bt behind deir bk. in case i get in2 trouble. lol. anwis. i still sebei full now lar.dun even feel lyk eatin dinner. oh man. aiya. dun wanna make mi post so long. ltr veri long winded.so end here le.

2005-11-11T17:52:00.000+08:00

its beenn a loooonnnnggg timee sincee ii last blogg. bt juzz blogg abit 4 2daee larrr. life isss soooo borinn nowadaess. dunno yy oso. maybb bcuz now dun nd go bk 2 sch le. haha. bt its a gd tingg in a waee 2 larr. noo nd 2 seee t'cher n etc. bt deres bloodyy damm lotza hmwk mann. did summ oreadie. bt stilll a longg wae 2 go. i wun bb lyk lastt ya le. everytingg oso lastt min. denn everytime cannott finishh on timee. aniwss. deres supposedd 2 b a classs bbq 2dae de. bt i feeel damm bloodyy tired. so duun feeel lyk goin. haha . i 'll reallii missedd out all e funn man. lol. bt i juzz reachh home howw 2 expect mi 2 go out againn. haha. noww no mood 2 doo ath oso. juz feel lyk sleeppin n sleeppin. so SSHHIIOOKK man . haha. hmmm. wonderr if i'll get all e scoldinss frm all mi classmatee. lol. class chairman dinn go 4 bbq. haha. hopee tt wunn happenn. nth 2 write bout le. dunn wannnaa tokk bout e neww bloggskinn either. so i "zao" le. tilll den. zai jian..

2005-10-28T19:23:00.000+08:00

Spending my days too unproductively
I was just intoxicated with funny feelings

The first kiss, various events
Sometimes I became so possessive

The only thing I could do at that time was
To really try turning my back on love

I might have known too early
The terrible rebound after happiness

"To behave generally is the best"
Such an illusion was too simple and just shallow

Your back I saw off for the last time still take up my mind
How long should I wait to be released?

"The more you love me, the more my heart aches
I don't love ... any more"
>

2005-10-27T19:33:00.000+08:00

i m here again. haha n i feel so sick man. headache. fever cummin n goin. muscle pain. cough. wat do u get? DENGUE FEVER!! n i feel veri cold. well i realli hope is nt dengue man. if realli kana. i 'll reali dunno wat 2 do man. tmr goin 4 a medical checkup. hope mi nightmare doesnt cum true=)...anwis. cant believe i actually kana e best improvement award. haha. 6 out of 9 ppl frm mi class kana. pro rite=). den e prize is sum bk 20 dollars bk voucher. haiz. at least betta den nth. can still buy pens 4 nx yr. lmao. aniws. dunno if i shud go sentosa tmr leh. ppl ask mi 2 go. bt i tink i gt "dengue". how 2 go? ltr i die or blackout. den jia lat ar. aiya. its been a long time i last went 2 sentosa. 1 yr 2 b exact. n everytime go dere is juz beach n beach. haha. den everytime i din kana sunburn de. lalala. i m 2 dark le. haha. lol. oh ya. oso did sum learnin analysis tingy. saein wat. i m a afternoon person. n i cant study at night. lol. actually its quite true lar. WWWAAAHHHH! cant stand mi headache. tink i betta go rest. dun wanna blog le. cant concentrate. ya. bb

2005-10-25T19:31:00.000+08:00

sianz. dun hav much time 2 blog. so 'll make diz a quick 1. cant wait 2 c mi results tmr. wanna c mi whole lvl position. haha. c if i can make it 2 e top 20. haha. oh ya. shit. i 4gt!! holis gt ncc activities. how 2 work!! jia lat. i gt e application form le. n sure confirm workin le. bt how 2 xplain bout mi cca activities!! oh man!! sian diao. liddat sure kana scolding le. wa lao. i wan $$ de lar . sian man. den oso hav e stupid extra cirriculum (is tt how u spell it?). muz cum bk sch everidae. SIAN. i wanna wake up late 1 lar.diz is so stupid man. n i tink mi cough is gettin bad man. saw blood in mi phelgm. tt realli scared mi man. wat if i gt tubercolosis... aniwws. yy m i cursin miself. haha. mayb is juz tt i c wrongly( i realli hope so) . i m gettin more short tempered nowadaes man. dao ppl. scold ppl. i nd counsellin man.(JK) . mayb its due 2 too much stress. haha. olevel chinese nx mon. i muz get distinction man. if nt drop frm HCL to express chi. den lidDAt all mi sec 1 to sec3 in higher chinese oso useless le. haha. aniws. i tot diz is suppose to b kept short. haha. guess i'll stop here. bb

2005-10-23T15:58:00.000+08:00

long time neva blog le. play 2 much game. haha. so comletely 4gotten bout blog. haha. bt 2dae juz write a little bit lar. wun kill oso. lol. aniws. dunno wat 2 sae bout mi results. thou its quite low. bt its considered quite gd in mi class le. haha. oni hav 3 a1. 1 a2. 2 b4. 2c5. sianz. den mi l1r5 total 14. how 2 go 2 jc. haha.bt i'll work harder nx yr. haha. aniws. i tink i found a job 4 mi holidaes le. YAY!! lolz. can at least earn $$ n buy mi own tings. haha. its so gd 2 work. i luv money =). okae. dot dot. aniws. i go play mi new found luv game 1st. lol. haha. byebye.

2005-10-14T11:39:00.000+08:00

sianz. holidae. nth 2 do at home. juz game n juz game. can play til i die oso no 1 noe ar. bt a least 2dae i hav sum activities. dun nd 2 stay in diz bloody huz 4 e whole dae. haha. its been a long time since i went out. especially bcuz of e EOY. bt nvm. 2dae i can finally get bk e taste of out out again. haha.haiz. wei jie was e 1 hu organise diz ting. bt bcuz he spend 2 much $$ bcuz of SOMETHING. so he cant go out wif us. stupid man. den in e end i have 2 cal n call so mani ppl. if mi phone bill cums bk veri high. dey will b e 1 i gonna murder sia. haha. nextly. nilawan dunno lyk wat desperado liddat. nd 2 tok 2 sum1 oso dunn nd 2 beg RITE!! if u r readin diz. gd 4 u =)...aniws. haha. gotta bathe le. so yea . bb =)

2005-10-11T14:33:00.000+08:00

wudden it be nice,
2 be freed from all...
all of ur trouble?
the feeling of freedom,
frm a torturious odeal,
is just so satisfying.

wat hav pass will b gone 4eva,
wat will b left...
will juz be e memories,
e painful memories of slogging...
day in n dayy out juz 4 1 dam stupid paper.

bt in e end,
u still fail e same bloody paper.
wat do u get?
scoldin n naggin.
if u noe tt all diz gonna happen,
wud u still study lyk shit?
study til e sky drop yet u r still oblivious 2 it?

haiz.
e EOY is finally over. no more studyin frm dae 2 nite le. n no more of e stupid exam atmoshere. i feel so relieve man. haha. now its juz holidae n holidae until nx wk tue. can finally slack mi heart out le. haha. i feel so sad 4 dose pure geo ppl hu still hav deir geo paper 1 tmr. dey still hav 2 study 4 e geo while others r juz rejoicing over deir freedom frm e clutches of EOY. haha. btw. i m nt a saddist. haha. i dunno y oso. after diz EOY. dun feel happy at all. hahaha. usually after every major exam. i will feel a sense of satisfaction. wonder y i din feel tt 2dae? haha. aniws. thou e EOY is over. i still hav 2 take e bloody o level chinese paper. n i haven started studyin 4 it. seein dose sec 4 studyin so hard makes mi so stress sia. i shudden hav went in2 higher chinese. regret choosin it in sec 1. bt at least if i score well 4 it. can hav xtra cut off pt. n jc dun nd study chinese le. haha. aiya. n 4 dose hu haven finished deir EOY yet. gd luck!!

2005-10-07T17:40:00.000+08:00

haiz. 2dae test i tink i flunk dam sia. especially phy. dam diffcult sia. sianz. but its alrite. 2 more exams dae n i m free. haha. after tt i'll becum siao liaoz. haha. cant waitt for EOY to end man. its so stresssffuulll. everydae studyy n still studyyy. frm afternoon all e wae to nite. cant use e com. no life at all sia. haha. hmm. jus found out tt mi name has a stupid meaning...

joe ( P ) Pronunciation Key (j)

noun. Informal

Meanig : Brewed coffee.

i m so offended. wat dey mean by calling mi a coffee. i m a human. dUhhH. mind ur language =). haha. aniws. i've decided. i'll go into intensive studying diz weekend. veri scared of chem n amaths. nt realli confident bout dese 2 remaining subject. i oreadie flunk 1 subject le. cant afford 2 flunk another subject. tt is e sad life i lead n live. high expectation. sniff sniff. bt i'll persevere on. i wun drop dead liddat. nt until i achieve all mi wwishess n ddreamx. haha. oh ya. haha. gt a new blogskin again. haha. another of mi sis [sweet-innocence] excellent job. haha. all mi previous blogskin all made mi her. muz comment her. haha. ltr she sae i nt grateful. haha. yupps yupps. tink i'll stopp here leeeh. =). nth 2 write le. haha. persevere on 4 ur examz. e painful odeal gonna end soon le ;)

2005-09-30T19:03:00.000+08:00

BLOODY HAIRDRESSER. dunno how 2 cut hait izzit. now mi hair lyk dunno wat shit. all thx 2 u man. arghzzz.n it cost mi precious 12 dollars man. how can i go out of mi huz now. sianz. nvm. shall wait 4 mi hair grow long again n cut. sobbx sobbx.
aniws. tmr mi eng oral le. haha. din even perpare 4 it thou. bt i m lucky nt 2 have chinese oral. haha. cuz i taken mi o level chinese oral earlier in e year le. so dun nd take chi oral again. haha. n can go home earlier den all mi classamte. ( YeA!! ) .

btw. ppl nowadaes veri oso busybody sia. nth betta 2 do oso. especially mi class ncc ppl. dam lame sia. 2 dam ath is fun 2 play man. haha. oh yar. 2dae pizza's was great man. haha. ms liang n mrs lee ordered 2 hawaiian m 2 seafood pizza for our class. haha. its 4 sum kind of encouragement i tink. b4 e final yr exam. thankew t'chers.
appreciated tt. dun nd 2 buy lunch oso. can save money. haha. lolz.

2005-09-25T18:04:00.000+08:00

haiz. study finish mi social studies. ltr still muz do amaths. sianz diaoz. bt muz destress a bit lar. tts y i m usin e com now. lolz. haiz. reali nth 2 write bout leh. amanda daoin mi. i msg her she din reply mi. i still gt 100 over msg 2 go lar. in 2 days summore. i oso nt dose type of hardcore smser. e most i msg is 40 in a dae. bt if i dun finish using all mi sms. veri wasted sia.

btws i feel veri sick now sia. blk n runny nose. sore throat. wonder if i gt bird flu or dengue fever. lmao. y m i cursin myself. i wanna live a long n healthy life.n will nt die b4 i taste wat is luv ;). haha. tts is wat we live 4 rite? haha.

aniws. yes dinner was a blast man. i went 2 mi aunt house n had samu-samu(is tt wat u call it??). its sum kind of steamboat with beaf n other things lar. dam nice. eat until now gt sore throat. haha. btws. cant believe mi cousin go buy e "yummy yummy" serial drama when it is gonna b shown on tv. summore he watch until e 17 episode le lar . haaha. haha.he is mad sia. n i juz found out yes tt he wore glasses. haha. aniws. i muz restart mi com. shudden hav update mi zonealarm. brings mi more trouble oni. haha. chaoz...

2005-09-24T15:36:00.000+08:00

i was wondering,
deep on mi deepest thots.
how well do i noe u,
how well do i understand u,
well, e ans is simple.
i dont at all.

we arent even gd frens,
n we were neva close.
all i noe is tt u r the one,
whom i had lyked.
bt this lyk,
is gradually becumin hatred.

wat did i get in return,
for showin the love.
nothing...
bt i din mind.
as long as u are happy,
i m content.

bt as time passed by,
i realised i had owaes been stupid.
y did i chose 2 wait 4 u,
instead of movin on.
e reason is bcuz i luved u,
n i din wanna let u go

as hard as i had tried,
i cant prevent u frm slippin away frm mi.
i wished i could be wif u...
eternally,
even as a fren,
bt tt is not possible.

i have had many dreams,
u and me together.
u were in mi arms,
n i was teling u how much i luved u.
ur smile, ur eyes,
dey r juz so beautiful.

bt all dese are juz dreams,
dey will neva happen in diz cruel reality.
my brittle heart is slowly breaking,
into millions n millions pieces.
i cant stop myself,
from droppin into a dark...neva ending hole.
.
.
.
.
no one can save me,
frm diz fall...
n wake mi up frm mi slumber.
no one else...
except for you.
bt will u be my hero......

2005-09-24T13:42:00.000+08:00

1 more wk 2 exams le. veri stress sia. especially chemistry. i dun understand e bloody mole chapter. no matter how hard i try lar. sianz. and tt david cheong had almost study finish all e subject le lar. i so envious sia. cant wish 4 e exams 2 pass sia. den can finally relax. now veri veri extremely stress. muz memories so mani idiotic formulas. liddat mi brain mi burst sooner or ltr. aniws. still cant believe mi class won e best Discipline award. haha. tts dam tyco. bt gt money take can le lar. haha. can organise chalet. lolz. N i tink yz has a new target. he wanna make sth 4 e "FREN". haha. bt tts oni guessin. he lyks 2 confuse ppl. cant believe his words. lyk how he make so confused e last time. aniws. haha. i gt a new blog skin. lolz. i din even noe bout it until 2dae lar. haha. mi sis lyks 2 create blogskin 4 mi. lolz. n she gt mi password. tts y veri easy 4 her 2 change mi blogskin. its a gd thing thou. as she can change mi blogskin regularly. as u noe. i dun noe a bit in makin blog skin. she veri pro sia. lolz. aniws. i muz zao le . bb

2005-09-20T18:54:00.000+08:00

havin stomachache sia. ouch. haha. dunno wat i eat wrongly man. okae. i m being lame. bt hu cares lar. tts mi character. bein lame is mi. no 1 can change mi. muahahahaha. * i tink i m goin overboard * aniws. 2dae was a blast sia. e social studies test was reali. erhem. dunno how 2 describe lar. i was stuck at e 1st part. e qn ask how important was foreign investors 2 s'pore industrial sectors. mi n david were discussin wat 2 write. haha. u can call tt cheatin. when tuck hing were at e 5th line. we r still stuck at e 1st part. pro rite. haha. hu cares aniws. so long as i get 9 n above for dese test ( upon 12 marks ). i'll be veri happy le. cuz liddat i'll b able 2 get a1 le. mi hands is oso hurtin sia. mi poor little finger sufferin frm blisters. haha. fold 2 much stars yesterdae le. summore i no nails. bt nvm. i'll persevere on. lolz. even if mi hands bleed. haha. jokin. aniws. i dunno y finny lyks 2 use wth so much. haha. is bad u noe. at least every 2 sentences will hav 1 wth de. haha. n she sae i veri naggy. sobbx sobbx. i veri naggy meh?? mayb is inherited frm mi mum de. haha. oh wellz. at least i m still kind. haha. bhb. aniws. muz eat dinner le. i can smell e delicious food. lolz. jealous. haha. gotta eat mi dinner le. bb.n gd luck 4 all u ppl out dere 4 ur exams ;)

2005-09-18T17:58:00.000+08:00

What am I expecting?
Every time the phone receiver
I'm grasping trembles
My heart leaps
But soon I'm let down with a sigh
How many times will I continue to do this?

How long am I going to believe the words, "some other day"
When it will never come?

It's better to forget
Thinking that I just dreamed for a little while
Though I know very well
A miracle will never happen
Though I know very well

I'm sorry I told you abruptly that day
That everything became suddenly unclear

The last time that I saw your tears
Is still clinging to my memory

Why couldn't I believe in you .
Right in front of me?
You see? It must have been good enough
Only to love what I was loving
Almost clumsily

I wonder if I could leave
Something for you

When time passes by
What will be left for me?
My heart going on wishing for a miracle?
Or just

A scar?

exams are edging nearin every dae. n mi heart is gettin more n more frightened every dae. i cant flunk mi sec 3 exams sia. especially mi languages. which r usually mi weak pts. i juz cant seem 2 score well 4 dam. dunno e reason 2. haha. i m reducin e time i used e com le. cuz i muz study. mi life is a veri stress 1 man. it is such a sad case lorx. i realli nd sth 2 cheer mi up man. ltr i break down den jia lat le ar. haha. den nx wk so mani test sia. almost all e sub. juz bcuz nx nx wk cant hav ani test. so e t'chers squeeze all e test 2 nx wk. how 2 study. sian diaoz. sec 3 is so stressful man. dunno how m i gonna spent mi sec 4 man. which will b even more streeful. den after all e end yr exam. every 1 can finally relax. bt i still muz prepare 4 mi o level chinese. which i haven started revisin yet. haiz. shudden hav went 2 higher chi sia. n if u wonderin y i put e lyrics on top is bcuz i find it veri nice. its by ayumi hamasaki pain or hope in eng. haha.

2005-09-17T10:42:00.000+08:00

Take my photo off the wall
If it just won't sing for you
'Cause all that's left has gone away
And there's nothing there for you to prove

Give me back my point of view
'Cause I just can't think for you
I can hardly hear you say
What should I do, well you choose...

2005-09-11T17:46:00.000+08:00

heyya.i m bk.bloggin again.thou i tink 2daes entry will be veri short. cuz i hav nth 2 sae. nth realli happen 2 mi at all. unless u r tokin bout daily muz do tings lyk shitting n urine n slpin n usin e com.tts all i did. n guess wat. i haven start on mi revision yet.okae.after 2dae.it'll be juz studyin n studyin oni.i'll nt be usin e com animore until e exams finish.k lar.dun wanna blog le lar.stop here.tata

2005-09-05T12:55:00.000+08:00

i noe ppl shud hav given up on mi blog le.bt its juz tt i dun feel lyk bloggin.no time.[actually is i playin game].i hav alot of tings 2 sae.especially after e death of mi beluved classmate dory fish =(.n another of mi beluved classmate susanna leavin s'pore n returnin 2 hk 2 study.i'll miss bth of dam.i feel so guilty lar. haven return susanna her dictionary den she leave liaoz.bt nvm.i'll keep it as a sovenier she giv me =). n dory. she juz leavce so suddenly. i din even hav time 2 sae how much i luved her as a fren. she owaes brighten mi life wif dose funny smses. i'll realli missed dose smses thou.
aniws.i'll b goin 2 climb ophir tmr =). 4 daes of torture.4 daes of sweat.i'll smell so much man.bt it will be worth it man.seein 2 beautiful scenery frm the summit of the mountain.i neva climb a mountain in mi whole life man.oni mount faber[tts nt even a mountain!!].n i heard tt its quite a dangerous mountain.1 of mi ncc seniors almost fell frm e mountain.bt he was saved frm meetin yan luo wang thx 2 another of mi senior savin him.hope diz will nt happen 2 mi 2.wish mi luck=) lolz.i'll reali miss s'pore 2.mi bed.mi pillow.lmao.
oh yar.mi parents was overseas last wk.so much freedom sia.i slp in deir room n on e air con 2 full blast until i cant slp.den i can oso go out w/o tellin dam.lyk goin 2 dory house yes 4 sum sort of party 2 celebrate her release frm e sufferin she suffered since she was small.haha.bt tts 2 gd part.e bad ting is tt no 1 washes e clothes.no 1 mop e floor.no 1 cook 4 mi=(.
i'll stop here.dunno when i'll blog again.i 'll try mi best 2 blog thou.when i hav time.especially since exams are cummin.every1 study hard kayz.okae.saiyonara=))

2005-08-04T19:57:00.000+08:00

I open my eyes
I try to see but I'm blinded
By the white light
I can't remember how
I can't remember why
I'm lying here tonight
And I can't stand the pain
And I can't make it go away
No I can't stand the pain

How could this happen to me?
I made my mistakes
Got no where to run
The night goes on
As I'm fading away
I'm sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me?

Everybody's screaming
I try to make a sound
But no one hears me
I'm slipping off the edge
I'm hanging by a thread
I wanna start this over again
So I try to hold onto
A time when nothing mattered
And I can't explain what happened
And I can't erase the things that I've done
No I can't

How could this happen to me?
I made my mistakes
Got no where to run
The night goes on
As I'm fading away
I'm sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me?

I've made my mistakes
Got no where to run
The night goes on
As I'm fading away
I'm sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me?

2005-06-18T01:16:00.000+08:00

i hav enuf of everything.
y cant tings go ur way u realli wan?
is dere such tings as a happy endin,
tt exist in fairy tales?
nope, i dun tink so.

sumtimes i tink,
y is e world so cruel?
y does e world create so much pain n sufferin?
2 e innocent ppl hu live in it.
dun e world hav even abit of conscience,
or compassion?

every1 hav a limit,
a limit b4 dey break down,
2 such a state tt eth dosen realli care.
2 a stage tt dey becum numb 2 e pain inflicted 2 dem.
til dey becum helpless
n take death as e oni way out.

if e world even hav concern,
none of dese wud hav happen.
noe of dese...wud hav happen

2005-06-15T21:53:00.000+08:00

here i m...bk 2 bloggin...neva blog 4 daes le...bcuz of mi veri busi schedule ar...aniws...2dae is e last 2nd dae of mi spec course...hahaha...i so happy...after tmr...i'll officially get mi sergeant rank...i hope...dese few daes were tirin man...muz wake up everydae at 0530...den go 2 e ncc hq which is all e way in yio chu kang...4 half a dae...den go home...n e journey frm mi huz 2 e camp take bout 1 HR & 30MIN...nvm...all e pain n sufferin'll b gone tmr at e ceremony...haha...still cant imagine mi bein a sergeant man...its lyk yes i was juz a sec 1 cadet...time flies man...realli...now is oreadie halfway in2 2005 le...1 more yr n i'll do mi o level liaoz...3 more yrs n i'll enrol in2 army le...haiz...i'll die 1 man...dunno y e government muz make it compulsory 4 all man 2 join NS man...other countries does nt make it compulsory...so shud our government...okae...i m gettin out of pt...aniws...frm 2dae onwards...i shall b a happy man...no more bein sad...dun c e use of bein sad lar...oni burden mi odwn oni sia...aiya..stop here lar...bb

2005-06-06T20:30:00.000+08:00

Where will you be tomorrow?
Really I don't care
I have seen the future, rising everywhere
Look into the mirror, tell me what you see
Piece by piece you'll vanish,
Until you disappear!
Now, I'm doing, what I say
No more fooling, anyway
Beyond this hell, there is a better life to lead
You're all undone, emotionless,
It's not the way for me
Now I know, there's a better way
Let my heart ride out for a brighter day
Now it's time to breathe in the open air,
With a mind so free, anyway
It's time for a change,...
It's time to break free!
Had enough of fooling, had enough of lies,
Hypocrisy, intriguing, right before my eyes
Had enough of hound dogs, barking all the time
I agree with Elvis, you ain't no friend of mine
Apart from this, there is a better life, I know
You're all undone, emotionless,
It's time for me to go
Now I know, there's a better way
Let my heart ride out for a brighter day
Now it's time to breathe in the open air,
With a mind so free, anyway
It's time for a change,...
It's time to break free!
Now I know, there's a better way
Let my heart fly free towards a better day
Now it's time to breathe, it's the only way,
Let my mind ride out, anyway...
Now I know, there's a better way
Let my heart ride out for a better day
Now it's time to breathe in the open air,
With a mind so free, anyway
It's time to break free!
It's time to be me, FREE

2005-06-05T22:58:00.000+08:00

Do you remember,
How we used to play like kids in the sun
Nowadays, there's no light to see
And we're feeling cold
So the time has come
To say farewell my friends
My fale is calling loud
Now I know - it can get tough
And I don't know where I'll be tomorrow
Do you - do you wanna know it
I don't care about it
Somebody said that we could never, ever die
Oh what a lie
You will see the light again
We'll all be free someday:
I know - cause united we stand
Goodbye my friends, I'm leavin' you today
My quest is hard, but I must be on my way
Now, don't ask why
Goodbye, dear Friends
Don't you try to stop me,
All I know is: I have to go!
There'll be no sense in my life at all,
If I stay
You will never see it - you will never find it
Oh yes I will!
Someone will take my place if I DIE!
[An old man said:]
Some years ago; they've tried it all before
Some men of honour left
And searchied for that Land
They did not return. Now it's up to you
To play a better game - remember
When you're out there
Don't look back at all!
Goodbye my Friends, I'm leavin' you today
The Quest is hard,
I hope I'll fine a way home one day
Goodbye my Friends, I'm leavin' you today
The Quest is hard,
I hope I'll fine a way home one day
You will see the light of day
We'll all be free again
All that's left to say is FAREWELL

2005-06-02T19:31:00.000+08:00

u were e 1 hu brought mi joy,
u were e 1 hu brought mi happiness,
bt u are oso e 1 hu brought mi pain,
u are oso e 1 hu brought mi sufferin.

i've been wonderin,
y i m born in2 diz world to suffer?
y cant i b in a paradise,
where deres no enternal sorrow,
bt oni laughter, peace n joy.

n tt every1 face is juz a smile,
nt even a frown can b seen.
bt i tink again,
is tt possible?

e pain u brought is simply 2 much,
i juz cant find a way 2 get rid of dem.
nor can i stop miself,
frm droppin in2 a neva endin hole of darkness...

2005-05-30T00:16:00.000+08:00

oKaE...its veri late now...i shud b in mi warm n comfortable bed...slpin n dreamin of sum1 ;)...bt heyz...i dunno y i m updatin now...rite in e middle of e nite...or shud i sae midnite...bt since its e holis rite now...i guess its alrite 2 stay up late...since deres no sch tmr...provided mi mum dun catch mi usin e com ( pss...shes slpin ) ...if nt i'll die a horrible death...aniws...i'll b makin mi ic tmr...yayz...tt shows tt i m 15 yrs old (lame)...wonder if dey still take ur bld 2 c which bld group u in...siAnz man...veri pp1 online sia ( dose online oso either busy or away )...i tink i shud slp man...since deres realli nth 2 do...

ok...i've decided..i'll go brush mi teeth n go 4 mi beauty slp...gd nitez n swit dreams =)

2005-05-27T16:57:00.000+08:00

went 2 e sch 2 collect mi report bk frm e t'cher 2dae wif mi mum...zhang lao shi said veri little tings bout mi...so eth was done in a jiffy...dam lame leh...went 2 e sch juz 2 get report bk...waste mi ez-link card $$ n mi veri precious time...n finally holidaes hav arrived...yay!!!...bt deres r so mani hmwk...e t'chers all saddists 1 ar...sumore i durin e holis muz cum bk sch 4 EXTRA lessons...so sIaNz man...BTW i gt a new n unique blog skin AGAIN...made by a person hu used 2 top e blogskin chart...n e person is none other den mi sista...u noe...alot of ppl r askin her 2 make e blogskin 4 dem...hahaz...sounds lyk i m promotin 4 her...hmmm...wat can i write...oh yar...mi ncc seniors r leavin le...n e sec 3 cadets r finally takin over...its lyk a dream cum true...i'll stop mi "nonsense" here...bye bye i sae

2005-05-25T21:49:00.000+08:00

hMmM...i feel veri sick now man...blocked nose...itchy n watery eyes...i m gonna b ill sooner or later man...shit man...meet e parents is juz 2daes away...diz realli suxs man...y muz dey release e results out man...sIaNz...newaes...i m feelin veri tired e whole dae...mi eyes r lyk half open...half close lar...i wanna SLP...u noe...slpin is veri important 2 mi health...aiya..i m realli crappin man...n i dun understand y sum ppl blog can blog so long 1 lar...everytime i blog abit...i'll bcum veri sian liaoz...(i m delibratin saein dese to take up e space)...oh wellz...blog blog blog again tmr i will...byebye

2005-05-24T21:34:00.000+08:00

i m veri sticky n smelly rite now...i haven bath yet...haha...after i came bk frm sch playin soccer...i went home eat dinner n did mi emaths hmwk...i so quai rite?? haha...aniws...mi results STINKS...i gt 17 4 mi l1r5 lar...i m so dead man...tts mi highest in whole mi 2ndary sch life...aRgHhHzZz...i muz realli work harder man...hMmMM...wonder hu gt 1st 4 e whole level...tt person muz b veri shen ar...haha...aniws...i dun wanna blog liaoz
bb

2005-05-23T20:10:00.000+08:00

updatin again...nth realli happen 2dae...at home most of e time...wif a duck call kyler hershey...ok...i m bein lame...it is juz a stupid soft toy...i was playin games e whole dae...after finishin mi a-maths hmwk...ms lee gif us so much hmwk lar...lucky tmr no a-math sia...nth 2 write bout 2dae lar...so stop here=)

2005-05-22T16:14:00.000+08:00

yoz...everybodi...watched star wars episode 3 revenge of e sith yes...it was so nice sia...e graphics...storyline...simply 2 irrestible man...mi, hosea, yong zhi, amanda and lisa went 2 plaza sing yes 2 watch e movie...at 1st we went to orchard cineleisure 2 watch...bt wth...e slots were all full huz man...wat luck...so we went 2 plaza sing 2 watch lor....hosea was lyk so desperate 2 watch starwars lar...he said tt he MUZ watch e movie yes...we watch e 0450 show at gv ps...n we kana 2 2nd row lar...so when e movie ended...hosea was complainin bout his neck bein pain...haha...wellz...tt was wat happen yes...now i m goin 2 go 2 mi ar ma huz liaoz...her b'dae 2dae...long time since i last saw mi ar ma...btw...i dun even noe how old she is diz yr...wat kind of a grandson m i man...NN...i juz realised tt it was her b'dae 2dae...when mi mum told mi in e mornin...oh wellz...i feel so bad n guilty man...aniws...i g2g now...i shall blog again tmr... i tink..so bb =)

2005-05-21T10:14:00.000+08:00

wah lao...mi whole bodi is aching man...all thx 2 e nccc yes...all e main com ppl all kana takan untill very jia lat man...n now mr ganesan is considerin 2 pull us out of e specialist course til we do sth bout our part...oh manz...aniws...i juz woke up frm mi 9 hrs rest =)...i super tired man...especially everydea i muz wake up at 0530...NT ENOUGH REST LAR...sumore scientist sae tt we nd at least 8 to 1o hrs of slp everydae lar...i m so deprived of slp man...aRgHhHhH...i tink i'll go bk 2 mi rooom 2 slp summore...dam tired...gd nitez...opPps...i shud sae gd morning ppl...bb

2005-05-19T21:05:00.000+08:00

yea...mi b'dae 2dae...haha...bt y muz hav ncc related ting on mi b'dae...sIaNz lar...aniws...after tt....i went 2 causewae pt 4 dinner wif all mi beluved ncc brothers...okay...i m bein lame...bt all of them went head over heels over 1 sec 2 galz...except 4 mi =)haha...dey all luvsick ar...n mi arm is super pain lar...cant even lift higher dan 90 degrees...all thx 2 u man...sihao...aniws...i was promoted 2 class deputy chairman...i still prefer bein e class captain...i tink e class captain badge is much nicer...e class deputy badge color so or biang...dun go wif e color of mi name tag...aiya...dun wanna continue animore...guess i 'll stop here...zai jain

2005-05-18T16:39:00.000+08:00

i realli wanna break down liaoz man...mi results is lyk getting frm bad 2 more jia lat...i m veri stress rite now man...tink i'll get depression sooner or later man...sombody! HELP MI! okay...mayb i m exegaratin...bt i m realli in e state of confusion man...haiz..i flunked mi higher chi test...i dunno y...bt i keep flunking mi higher chi test...i realli feel lyk droppin higher chi...bt it'll b a pity lar...considering tt i had taken it since i was in sec 1 (to b exact, primary 5)...i m really afraid of e o level chi test in oct...i cant flunk ani chi test animore...aRgHhHhzZ...haiz...i tink i 'll stop here...dun feel lyk bloggin 2dae...bb

2005-05-16T16:59:00.000+08:00

wah...i really 1 2 die man...e chi test 2dae was a blast...e tian xie han zhi i oni noe 5 leh ( out of 25 )...n e comprehension...dun understand at all man...liu lao shi realli very cruel sia...even zhang fan was lyk saein e test was so damn diff...sumore deres nt sufficent time 2 finish e whole ppr lar...bt on e other hand...e amaths clas test is veri easy man...bt i minus half mark bcuz i 4GOT 2 WRITE sth...sIaNz...i'l stop here...study chem now...bb

2005-05-14T17:00:00.000+08:00

updatin again...i muz make it a pt 2 update mi blog regularly...to refrain crtitism frm cummin again...aiya...dunno wat i tokin bout lar...juz feel veri high...especially after e amaths tuition frm ms lee...(does dere shud noe wat i mean)...oh wellz...i finally understand quadratic inequalities...espcially the squaring 2 equation part...i m so proud or miself man...oh s***...i m crappin again...bt den...tt can b xplain =)...hahax...newaes...i tink i'll stop here...if nt i'll utter more rubbish...tata

2005-05-09T10:18:00.000+08:00

"this blogskin is new, okay. found by a very nice and loyal friend of mine. i shall then treat this friend to a shark fin soup dinner with all the other expensive stuff, and also buy a billabong waterbottle and a billabong pencilbox for this person." note...diz is written by sum1 hu design diz blogskin 4 mi...n e person noe mi password( cuz i giv it 2 her...wellz...aniws...now i can update mi blog regualrly le...cuz mi internet workin again...yuPz =p...so ppl can stop floodin mi tagboard n complain bout it...newaes...muz thank e person 4 doin diz blogskin...doreen (dun sae i din thank ya)...thou i still nd 2 do alot lof tings...i m sick n tired of jay chou n jay chou...wat so nice bout him(sry nilawan)...juz a bulldog face...dunno y i used him 4 mi blog in e past...i was 2 stupid...aiya...i nd 2 install mi msn again...so gtg...tata =)